i cant cope with everything. the stress in college is immense as we have an exhibition to do and i am a little behind on work after being in a car accident and failing to attend and the tutors cant find the time of day to help me!
everything with my dad and sister (as discussed previously) is really getting to me.
People in work are playing bitchy mind games with each other arguing over petty things which i am trying to stay out of but end up being dragged into
at home im on egg shells as my step dad is grouchy after being made redundant and cant find any work!
I just cant escape to anywhere, i am depressed, i used to self-harm and the urges are haunting me but i couldnt do that again to my H2B he is the only one that has successfully stopped me doing it and i dont want to hurt him! I feel useless as though i have no control over any of these situations, i have put on a lot of weight and i hate it, argh! i struggle to get out of bed in the mornings now!
im just losing interest in everything and now he is the one who is excited about the wedding.!!!
CommentAuthorwelshcerys
Try and be strong!! It is only a phase and it will pass.
Ditto college work etc, once your exhibition is out of the way then you can relax a little bit.
You know you can always escape on here!! x
CommentAuthorb2bnicola
Hun i cant offer any specific advice other than im going through a hard time lately too and whats been helping me was that i went to the doctors and poured my heart out to them and i was referred to a counsellor. Its not an instant fix but its certainly nice to get it all out!
xx
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CommentAuthorOfficially Mrs Nicol
be stong do'nt worry to much, just sit down and thi of how much u can do each day, i was way behind on my work this year with the kids being sick and sitter letting me down and things but i eventually got caught up. u will get there just believe u can do it... :)
CommentAuthorbridetobe1990
thanks guys i have been reffered to a councellor and i have been seeing one in college but she can be unreliable. there are a lot of under-lying factors so my councellor will have a lot to work with!
with college i really want to quit but know i only have a few months left. i have been trying to get on with work but i just cant concerntrate on anything i totally feel useless. i couldnt even sit down and cut things out and stick them in to sketch books for 5 minutes i had to get up and do something else my brain is totally restless
my thoughts are with you!!! be as strong as you can maybe you could find a special place and time where you can go and escape from all this stress and do something just for you even if it was just like 10mins a day it might help
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CommentAuthorkatrinatudor
aww hun i know whats its like to feel so god damn low you just want to be out of this world. i was like that in jan,feb,march and still kinda am. but all you have to think is you have a wonderful H2B your getting married and im guessing in a beautiful wedding dress with everyone looking at you saying how gorgoues you are. you should be thinking about you.. keeping yourself happy. if you ever want to talk im here i've had the worst start to year ever with my little boy passing away who was going to be our page boy. and i've got through it.. yea i have down days but you work through them with H2B. Chin up sweet! =] xx
CommentAuthorlizzyleek
Stay strong sweetheart! It will pass consentrate on you and H2B and get the exhibiton out of the way and you can relax a little more then. Chin up you will be fine x
CommentAuthormrselbie
Hon go to your GP and get them to refer you on to a councillor they will be much more reliable. Try and keep calm, these months in education are mental full stop, I'm sorry that everything else has kicked off on you too though :( H2B and I have decided not to plan anything until we leave Uni for that reason. I hope that you can find peace soon x
CommentAuthorbridetobe1990
omg! im soo sorry to hear about your son. katrina. i feel awful im wallowing away and you have been so strong through that! thank you for offering your support and i will take your advice seriously, thats to you all.
my thoughts are with you, even now i cant get my head straight katrina xx
CommentAuthorSuzi
Oh hun im sorry your feeling so bad, just remember there is always someone worse off.. Katrina has just pointed that out to us all..!!
If you have only a few months in college then please please please don't drop out or all your hard work up to now will have been wasted, you can do it, just sit down and work out how you will deal with each day and don't try and push yourself too much!
You have a gorgeous H2B (lucky you lol) and he would not want to see you this way! Be strong not only for him and your family but for yourself, get to the Dr's and tell them everything, they will refer you if need be!
Be strong hun and know we are here if you need us :o) x x x
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CommentAuthorbridetobe1990
i went to the doctors yesturday just waiting for my first appointment with councellor to come through. I am on anti-depressants. i am working towards getting better. i am just feeling pretty useless atm. i shouldnt be like this all the time. i have so much to look forward to and im down all the time. my H2B is relieved that i have gone to the doctors instead of handling this myself the way i used to.
CommentAuthorerinapple
Hey sweetie, you may be feeling pretty useless.....but YOU ARE NOT!!! Just the fact that you had the courage and the motivation to go to your doctors proves that. Be proud of yourself that you have taken steps in the right direction. It takes a strong and wise woman to take the steps that you have towards getting better. Don't pressure yourself to "feel" or "be" a certain way. Take Care Angel! You will be in my thoughts and prayers (you too katrina!).
CommentAuthormrselbie
Hon keep that chip up, you are doing all the right things, so give yourself a break, it is much deserved. My H2B is my rock, I suffer badly with depression and he really copes magnificently with me when I'm on a downer. But honestly, half of the battle is asking for the help hon, you'll get there and you will find a way to deal with it hon, you'll beat it xxx
CommentAuthorEriksfjord
Keep going - you are feeling down now but hopefully the anti-depressants will help. One suggestion I have is try to walk round the block for 10 mins or so a day. It will get you out of the house and exercise is meant to help lift how you are feeling. Hope this helps. xx
