Wedding Forum - Feeling really crappy :(...

Rant time.......

Kev and I went dancing this morning which went so well and then we headed into town to get the bridesmaids jewellery (H Samuel have a sale on for valentines and they have some small heart pendants reduced from £19.99 down to £9.99) which is ideal for the little ones. Anyways to cut a long story short I've over done things so the pain levels are pretty high right now. We were supposed to be going out tonight with some of Kev's friends but for the above reason I'm not going out. Kev then said he wouldn't go out because I'm not going so emotions got the better of me and I got upset. I hate him having to stop having fun because of me. I know he doesn't mind etc but I feel so bad about it. He has gone out now to meet them but only because he knows it has upset me that he hasn't gone out. I know he isn't going to enjoy himself and that it would have been better if I had just been OK about him staying in. No matter how I look at this I just can't see any good way of looking at it other than I've just made the situation go from bad to worse.

I know he doesn't mind putting plans on hold but I'm getting so sick of it. I just want to be able to go out and have fun and not have to keep stopping. Sorry girls but I just needed to vent my frustrations.

i kinda know how you feel i have a medical condition that can come and go the past few mths have been really bad and have had to miss alot of nights out together i think the best thing to do is if you cant go out and he wants to stay in with you let him but make it a special night for the two of you have a nice romantic dinner or snuggle up on the sofa and watch a film i know you feel bad about missing nights out but if he would rather be with you just let it be.

Yeah I know that is what I should have done and I'm so annoyed at myself. I just hate him having to go without all the time for me when he gives me so much. He's an angel and at the moment I feel like the little kid that has just thrown the biggest paddy ever. The poor guy puts up with enough crap without me making things worse. I'm just about to send him a text. x x

I don't know what has come over me I just feel so hormonal. Its like my period is due but its not for another couple of weeks. Even know I've posted this to help me think straight I still can't stop myself from being upset. I think I need a good slap not a cuddle lol.

I've sent him a text so I feel better now. Hopefully it will help him to enjoy himself a little more. I've also been doing the music for the wedding which is helping to cheer me up a little. MIL also rang to tell me that she has some of her mums brooches that I can borrow if I want to add to my train which I feel very honoured with. I don't have my own family so for her to be so lovely and allow me to use her mum's gives me great pride.

She knows how to make me feel better. I am just so lucky I not only have a wonderful man but his family are ace too.

Its always nice when you can get on with them but even better if you all like each other. I feel for some of the ladies on here when I read their posts and all the troubles they have. It makes me feel so lucky.

I'm excited because I can't wait to be Kev's wife and enjoy our day but I'm nervous about loads of things. Walking down the aisle is one I think most brides fear but I also have the added will I last the day out? I'm worried too how I will be on honeymoon too as we booked to go away on the Monday which I'm starting to think won't give me enough time to recover. We have made arrangements with the airlines to have a lift there in case I am bad but I don't really want to be stuck in a Italian hotel. I want to try and make it as special as possible. Fingers crossed the physio and hard work will have paid off by then and I will be running around :)

Thanks hun I know how lucky I am. I guess sometimes that is why its so hard to see him go without things. He always puts me first and I just want to look after him and make sure he is happy.

I'm wearing small heals for the services but we have arranged to sit down during them rather than standing and once we go to sit down and eat the shoes will be off and I'm wearing sheepy slippers. Its something that will make the guests laugh but be comfy for me. After dinner I'm going to go for a lay down with Kev in the room until the night do just to rest up a bit and it will give us some time to be able to catch up with each other. I'm sure the guests will understand.

Have you arranged with the airline to help you on the plane etc if you are bad? Our travel agent have been really good.

Hope you feel better today

Yeah feeling loads better today even though the body doesn't want to move. H2b came home last night and told me not to be so daft and that he loves me just the way I am. We had a wonderful morning this morning listening to the music we are playing at the wedding and talking about our big day. Was getting rather emotional but it was lovely. I'm just so lucky to have such a wonderful man in my life and he really knows how to melt the pain away.