I don't know how much longer I can go on plastering a fake smile and huge excitement on about this wedding. I am so disheartened, so down.. Cannot do it anymore. I always dreamed planning my wedding would be a fantastic time and I'd be so happy and I haven't been.. I've hated every single minute if it; the disappointment, let downs, drama, hurt, fall outs.. It better be F-ing worth it in the end. We've battled through debts, family refusing to come and kicking up a fuss, one bridesmaid ending our friendship, drama with giving notice, suppliers letting me down and having to start again... Constant hurdles to jump over and nothing is ever easy. I know it's petty, I know it's all small things in the grand scheme of life but I'm sick the death of it all.
When people ask "how are the wedding plans?!" And "wow, not long now you must be excited!!" I have to feign excitement or they get a rant from me about how much I hate it right now.
I can't imagine anything better than marrying my fiancé, and I'm making his life hell being a miserable cow at the moment and he is so understanding, I KNOW I want to marriage but the wedding can go p##p itself right now.
I don't really need anyone to say anything, just needed somewhere to vent... Sorry for venting yet again
Xx
CommentAuthorLauraY27
I feel exactly the same, so many other things going on. Just wish that we were having a smaller more simple day. Although I love our venue, I can't help but feel that it's too big and fancy and would rather have the lovely conservatory in a local country pub with the river running along side it. Ours also feels like ages away and I wish we'd done it sooner with much less fuss. I just want to get married, don't care where or when.
I'm sure it's just the stress getting to you. Have a week off and do something else to distract you, it may relight your fire :D xx
CommentAuthorBecky1608
Aw hun, I've felt the same at times. Looking forward to the day and the marriage but fed up of the decisions and the stress!! Xxx
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12/11/2008 - When we decided to be more than friends
04/11/2012 - A proposal in Central Park NYC
08/11/2014 - The day we say I do!
CommentAuthorlala "mod" bunni
Hun there is an easy answer to this ...CANCEL IT ....I think you need to ask your self if you are going to look back on your wedding with joy or are you just going to remember all the stress etc .
ive had simela! To point where we had to cancel all our wedding and re-arrange it all for something neither of us really want.
i thought it would be all twinkle and happiness but people aren't kidding when they say weddings bring out worst in folk!!
thing i keep thinking is stuff it, your hubby to be will still give you that look as you walk down isle that will make all the poop stuff melt away!
we went to wedding fair other day and my other half said when we got home i was most beautiful bride there, hes a man of little words so it meant alot that and made me realise everything else is just decoration.
i know it doesn't 100% help i still get upset how things have turned out!
I'm sorry you feel like this. What do you really want to do? What would make you feel excited and happy? This is supposed to be a joyful occasion and period in your life and no bride needs the stress.
Married the love of my life on Saturday 11th May 2013 xxx
Had our dream perfect honeymoon in Hawaii!
CommentAuthorRachelE118
Hey Crawf :( I've gone through exactly the same thing. And to make it worse it's 2nd time round for me. But with 3 months to go I can honestly say the excitement has come back and I can't wait to be his Mrs Chicken (yes honestly!!!) This is all with family (his) giving grief, having to move the evening venue, his major knee op and my mum having secondary cancer. So what I'm trying to say is that if you're anything like me things will get easier!! Hang in there, but if all else fails, elope!! xx
