sorry for this rant ladies but I need to get it off my chest as its getting me down. It may only be a few things that have gone wrong but I feel that its the start to everything going wrong.

First of all our wedding co-odinator has left our venue, she emailed me to say that now my fiance had got his redundancy money, were we in a position to the deposit as we promised, I phoned her the day after and said that I had spoken to one of her colleges and paid it the week before when she was on holiday,
she then said that she was leaving the company in a month and someone else would be taking over our planning. I recieved an email the next day saying that she had found our file on the computer system and could confim we had paid our deposit by card (£4,000) and she would be sending a reciept out with in the next few days, after two weeks I had not recieved anything so we popped into the venue and the lady on reception who was really helpful (but grumpy) printed a reciept of there and then for us, but she only went by what we told her as she couldnt find my file on the system.
I told her that Lauren had been dealing with us, to which she repied 'well im suprised she bothered to be so nice as she had been bad mouthing staff for the past six months and getting there backs up' and she then said that she had left the same day she spoke to me. I asked if she knew who would be taking over our wedding booking and she said well they have hired two people and would be in touch once the bookings had been shared out between them, this was the second week in february and im still waiting.

Next the person I worked with has set up his own floristry business with his partner who has been in the businness for 29 years (there is only him and her at the minute, he does the books and deliveries and wholesalers, and she does the arrangements) well I went to work two weeks ago to find out he had been rushed to hospital and kept in for three days. he was released and got rushed back in again, apparently he has serious problems with his lungs and has been told to take evrything really slow and only do what he has to do. So god knows who I am going to get to do my flowers that cheap.

Next the lady who is a friend of my h2b was going to make our cake for us on the cheap as she makes them for a living, I saw her for the first time since before xmas when my h2b had a petanque match with her. I asked her if everything was ok and was she still willing to make our cake, she said yes things are fine but she wants to retire early and is winding her cake making business down and only making a few but will definatly do ours, so I left it at that.
Later in the night I heard her talking to one of our other friends and she said that she was thinking of moving later on in the year down to cornwall, And I just thought oh no what else can go wrong, but I left it at that as there was noise in the background and I dont know if I heard right.
Then to top it all off my h2b used to bing home £500 a week after tax and insurance before he took voluntary redundancy and now with his agency job he only brings home £230 roughly but they havent paid him properly for weeks and this week he only brought home £197 and they keep insisting they are right and he is wrong even though we have both worked his hours out and sent copies into them and kept copies for ourselves. so our money has drasticly gone down and we are having to re-adjust our budget
and his ex is still insisting that she needs money for this and that for the boys, but she never uses it for them and can manage to pay for her ice hockey every week and shoves her kids onto everyone that will have them.

So now I just have a feeling that nothing is going to happen or go right and I dont see the point of planning anything else.

Sorry fo the rant but I needed to get it off my chest before I got so wound up and burst into tears.

thanx hun, but I just cant get it out of my hed that everything else will go wrong, as with me nothing goes right.x

Oh no, everything happening at once can't be helping. :0( All I can suggest is that you take a few days of wedding planning, don't think about it at all then come back to it next week with a fresh head.

Can you go to your venue and pin them down to give you details and the planner name etc? Flowers wise, we asked around and got a few quotes. Lady who is doing ours is doing my bouquet, 5 bridesmaids flowers, 2 flower girl posy's, 2 thank you bouquets, blowing up 100 balloons with helium, 250 chair covers and decorating our tables for £550.

In regards to the ex can your H2B not sit her down and come to an agreement about a set amount? Hope he finds better paid work soon.xx

he pays he a set amount each month, but when he was with her she used to give him £70.00 of his money a week, get the shopping, only pay the rent and council tax when she could be bothered, and then spend the rest on herself. When he left she went onto benefits but still needed to pay back dated rent, which she had the money for but spent it on doing the boys bedoom up as she wanted to get rid of all traces of h2b, but the rooms didnt need doing so she didnt pay the rent, she went to court and the court told her that they would only make her pay £65 as some of the backdated rent was due to benefits, if she didnt pay it with 2 months she would get kicked out, she asked h2b to pay it as she couldnt, I agreed to this but only for the boys sake as i couldnt see them on the streets, she hasnt paid it back. The next thng i know shes taking the boys (he has 2) on holiday to hemsby. ok it was in a cheap holiday caravan that she uses every year, but her car had failed the mot a few months before, so she asked h2b to lend her the money for a hire car for a week as its to much hasstle to go by train, but her boys love going on tains and stuff like that. he then told me that he was giving her the child support eraly so she could use hat as a deposit, which she agreed to, but today he says she needs more. she is always needing money fo something stupid, or using him to take stuff to the tip when she go herself or ask other family members. It may sound like im jealous but im not i dont stop him seeing his kids or taking them out as we have my boys one weekend and his the next, he gives them money if i know it is for them, but he still lies about some things, there are many a time i have given him the ring back, but ive always taken it back. I just dont know what to do anymore. x

awww dont worry hun this is all part and parcel of this wedding lark we have had more ups and down than I can remember, you've got to be positive and just think things will all work out in the end. Once I get one thing sorted something else gives me cause for worry, but I'm not gunna worry anymore its does'nt achieve anything.

That's terrible! Of course if you say no to her then it's the kids that miss out. :0(

Have a large glass of wine and try to forget it all for the rest of the weekend.xxx

well ive taken a day off from wedding stuff, i know its not long and i will take longer off, but i thought i'd come on and see whats been going on with other people, but to be honest my heart isnt here/there anymore, I looked at my pictures of me in my dress ( even though its just the sample and i dont get measured until november) and i just thought you ugly thing, whats the point, i just cant seem to pull myself out of this depression or get excited anymore. to top it all off i got on the scales today for the first time in ages and found out ive put all the weight on that i had lost and ive tried so hard to watch what i eat. sometimes i think whats the point of even getting married anymore.