As the title says i don't want to get married anymore.....
It's not because i don't love Steve, i do with all my heart and soul.
To be honest.... i'm fed up with family, so called friends, and i'm tired.... exhausted in fact. Sick of working nights and the people i work with are awful, let's just say their true colours showed the other night after i posted about how excited i was about my job going somewhere. I hate my job , and at the moment i can't change jobs because being a HCA is all i know i have no experience in and other type of job so i probably wouldn't stand a chance.....i just want to curl up in a ball and stay shut away for ever! to top it off I've lost my engagement ring!
And i'm also worrying about a hospital appointment that's coming up in may! Sorry ladies :( all i ever seem to do is rant/moan or be depressing but i don't who else i'm meant to talk to as i don't and can't trust anybody i know anymore
xxx
CommentAuthorbecky -mrs firth
first of all babe.......... i know we all go on about weddin day being the most fo iimportant thing between us and our h2b... but have u thought about a blessin ceremony instead? alot less fath etc etc
family & friends ...tell them to balls its ure live!! i wud go gretna green or abraod if u really wnated to wiv limited guests!
work mates- as we work in health care most staff are woman= women are b itches lol so ignore them
engagement ring.... awww hun sorry about that but u can get another one.. use it for the blessin??
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Hen Do Newcastle 2nd June 2012
Marrying the man of my dreams 11th August 2012!
Honeymoon To Jamaica 14th October 2012
CommentAuthorMagicFairies
I''m so sorry to hear you are having such a rough time. I really sympathize with you because so many relatives and friends have caused us so much trouble as well, I think its a shame that the people you are closest to have made you feel like this, but remember the day should be about you and your fiance. not them. Also sorry about your job- i used to work as a care assistant on nights and i know how bad that can be especially if you are with the wrong people, i don't know exactly what went wrong to make you feel this way about your job, but is there anyway you can build bridges with the people you work with? If not don't be dragged into feeling excluded from them, remain professional and i'm sure you can find another job, please don't feel like you have to do the same thing forever. As far as your engagement ring, first thing - check its not stuck in the seal of the washing machine (i lost mine there for 3 days!! didn't dare tell h2b!) - it might turn up, most things you lose will be lost around the house, but if it doesn't don't beat yourself up about it - it was an accident after all.
sorry thats a bit long - give me a shout if i can do anything or you want to chat.
Good luck, hope things start to get better xxxxx
CommentAuthorMrsOwen
my old work place was like that so i left and now work in a different home which is a lot better, also people trying to ruin your day like becky said tell them where to go, hope everything works out well xx
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CommentAuthorXLittleMissMe!X
I think its a shame that you don't want to marry the man you love because of other people. I would just go off together and do it. I'm sorry to hear you are having a hard time of things but try not to take it out on the man you love. x x
Do you still want to get married? Is it you just dont want the fuss of a Wedding??
MAssive loves and hugs hun xxxx
9th June 2012 when two worlds collide
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CommentAuthorButterflyDreamer
I'm really not sure anymore Rachel :(
Ever since we announced we were engaged things have just gone from bad to worse (Not financially) and it's really just making me so fed up i don't know what i want. All i know is i love Steven and our girls more than anything and wouldn't give them up for the world. Steven and i have been through far too much and come out the other side to give up completely it's just the whole wedding polava i guess.
Thank-you for reading my post and taking the time to reply it really means a lot to me xxxxxx
