Ok, so start with the rant... My SiL is being really funny with me for some reason.. There have been many many issues with her forgetting who her family are and ditching us for her friend even though we're the ones she always runs back to when anything majorly bad happens....
I think she's pee'd off with me for not inviting her to see my dress next month... Thing is, I just want the first time I see MY made to me dress to be just me and my mum.. Plus my mum is paying the second half off and I know my SiL will go gobbing off about how much it is... I am going to invite her to my first proper fitting at the middle-end of next year though...
I'm just fed up of her expecting to be treated like my sister when she doesn't treat me like hers anymore.. We used to be so so close but she's changed so much over the past 5 ish years that it's very hard.. Sometimes I can see the old her in there but very rarely now..

Secondly, I just need to get this off my chest...
H2Bs niece used to be my best friend, it's how I met him.. Over the last 4 years a lot of bad has gone on between us but about a year ago we started talking again and lately I miss her so much.. When we talk it's like nothing ever happened.. She got married last year and it was horrible sat there watching when I should've been up there stood by her side as we'd always planned.. Now we talk about my wedding and she's so excited for me and ALL I want to do is ask her to be my bridesmaid..
After everything she's done H2B hates how much we talk now and thinks I'm stupid for letting her back in, but I can't help it.. It's just who I am to give someone a second chance... Especially someone who means so much to me.. I honestly think he'd call the wedding off if I said I wanted her to be bridesmaid, and deep down I think it'd probably end in tears again and also she'd probably say no anyway because she's the type of person who pushes people away if they get too close (caused by a childhood of an evil mother who told her frequently she wished she'd aborted her)..
Anyhoo, seeing as I can't actually tell anyone how I'm feeling apart from my mum I thought I'd write it down :-)

U have it all going on don't you! I think let them be the way they are and u move on and don't worry about it so much...they've left you for dust so were they 'real' in the first place?x

I personally wouldn't have her as bridesmaid either she sounds like she would string u along for sake of wedding then drop u again... And I wouldn't wanna pi$$ of my h2b either... Hope it works out well x

Concentrate on the ppl that do care for you and treat you as if you are somebody and worthy of your time x

oh lv sounds like a headache… hope all works out for you without too much stress xx