after all my ups and downs of late thought i would share a good day with you all :)

i went and see a venue ( it will mean getting married in the reg office) and i like it. It will save us thousands. I can now afford to get married with out stressing over money. The woman who runs the place was soooo lovely she even showed me her daughters wedding photos (she got married there last month), just so i could see what it would look like done up. She answered all my questions and didnt even bring up costs untill i asked!!!!

Im really happy today. I have ordered all my kids favours. And some of my adult ones. Just a few more things to sort out but after seeing the doctor tomorow i should be well on the way to getting back to my old self.

aw pleased things are looking up for you hun and ur feelin beta xxx

yay! Glad things are looking up lovely! xx

thanks girls. feels good to smile even if it is just a little bit :)

Awwww brilliant I'm so happy everything has turned out right for you xxx

well i got my pills and i have to be watched very closely the poor doc i dont think he knew what hit him at that time in the morning but he was really nice and said he didnt know how i had lasted so long with out help before. He said im a very strong woman and with the right help i will be ok.

As for the rest im taking it one day at a time.

i have realised its not about where i get married and who comes and who does what.
It is about marrying the man who has shown me how to love and the man who has shown me i am lovable, with out the need to abuse me and hurt me.

i have to get better and be everything i can for myself my children and for him.
he has put up with so much crap from me and taken on a huge job with me he and the kids are worth fighting my demonds for

i will get there and changing the wedding to a reg office and hall will mean i have a huge weight of my shoulders with now not having to try and find 6 grand :)