I'm having a really bad day. Nothing I can honestly say is a huge problem, I just feel really irrational and I can't figure out why. I feel sick at some point every day, I crave stuff (not always the same stuff). I am over tired. I did a pregnancy test 6 weeks ago and it was negative as I was feeling sick all the time. I just want to win the lottery and disappear (preferably alive and with the money). I took 2 and a quarter hours to make two magnetic signs this morning, which I thought would only take an hour. I then tried to dig the holes for our fence posts only to find we have so much rubble under the garden, I have no hope. That means I can't get the fence up in time for the children I look after to play in my garden at half term. I'm living on a budget so tight I don't know how I get to the end of every month - that's not a problem, but I do have a h2b who lives in his lorry and at his mum's who seems to eat me out of house and home so I'm going to have to confront him about that and the fact that I pay for a full tv package so he can watch sports on the weekend. My 10yr old doesn't like one of the boys I mind. That's tough, but as soon as he breathes wrong I have her going on at me. I am disappointed as our wedding seems to get closer and smaller everytime h2b and I discuss it. I have now bought 3 different dresses - one took me ages to find as it was to h2b's spec - then he didn't like it. I don't like this last one, but you can bet he will!! Thankfully they're not proper wedding dresses and didn't cost the earth. My teens didn't text me last night. I hate them not living with me, I hate not knowing everything that mum's are supposed to know, but I can't find anyone who says anything helpful. I get "they won't leave chris because he has money" "they'll come to you when they need you" "you couldn't have done anything different". It doesn't stop the hurt though does it? Even stupid things, like I don't want to put on jeans because they are all that little bit too tight and I don't want to be uncomfortable. All that aside, I just don't understand why I want to cry and why I feel so low. It's not in my nature to be like this and I hate it. I've wasted a whole day now. I have tues - fri school hours with no children as I mostly do before and after school and I don't want the children here today even thought I love them and love being with them and busy. No-one can help. I just wanted to vent. xxx
Jo Santa
CommentAuthorOct12bride86
Im really sorry you are having a rough day. I have been feeling the same recently, just not getting joy out of anything. I think its working nights that has messed with my body clock and made me feel so down. I dont even know what day of the week it is half the time.
I make h2b pay for his own sky because I didnt want it. I told him, when he asked if we could get it, 'if you want it you can pay for it because I am happy with freeview plus I dont watch tv during the day on my days off. Id rather have the peice and quiet lol.
Have you missed a period hon??
Kirsty xxx
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CommentAuthorbecky -mrs firth
i personally think the 'feeling down' part is because of money, i know people say lifes not about it but having to think about ti all time does get u down, my mate sin same position! u need to get ure h2b to pull his weight now!
the sickness u cud hav ulcers? allergies? go to the doctor
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CommentAuthorStevie_Dee
As soon as September/October roll around every year I start to feel down for no apparent reason. I have had this for the past 3 years and last year I was diagnosed with SAD seasonal affective disorder. I didn't take much notice of the diagnosis as I didn't uderstand the winter blues but after speaking to other people its quite common. I am not a tablet person so won't take any type of pills if I can help it but I have a daylight lamp now which does help. I am not saying you have the same but just thinking that maybe its worth asking your gp to refer you to someone who will listen and maybe help understand what you are going through. xxx
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CommentAuthorShirleygirly
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When you write it all down, that is a lot of things to have on your mind, even though you aren't normally miserable by nature all of those things you mentioned would bring me down. Next time h2b is around you need to sit him down and speak to him about all then things that are bugging you. This is the man that you are going to spend the rest of your life with, if he can't ease your burden then nobody can. Sometimes I find that talking my problems over help me to see them from a new perspective.
The sickness and tiredness are something you should see your GP about. You said you did a pregnancy test about 6 weeks ago, have you had a period since? If not it may be worthwhile doing another. I think everything is getting on top of you with all the planning etc. I know you have been struggling with what to wear and that must be the hardest thing (I'm actually dreading trying on dresses) but perhaps in your frame of mind, you feel nothing you wear is good enough.
I hope you start feeling less anxious soon and UKBrides are always here to vent at whenever you need to. x
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