I dont know what to do. I have a very swollen tummy. makes me look 5 months pregnant. I have been on tablets to kick start my periods as I have PCOS. Now i want a baby more then anything in this world. Well martyn is beening a sh!t i have all the signs of a start of pregnancy( back ache, eating stupid foods. No sickness unless i Lay on my belly or side). We both said when i started these tablets when we where told we would be on them for 3 months of for a month and then on again for 3 months that we wont look for the signs. So i have it in my head that i will never have my own baby natrualy only by adoption. Well he has been looking at the signs Swollen tummy, and the above. I have told him to stop. When i give him ahug he holds my tummy now to which he has never done.
I dont mean to sound like a b!tch but i cant deal with it. I am sat here all teary all night with my MOH sending pics of her baby (who is ten weeks) him looking and smiling at me and hugging my tummy. I just want to be left allown. I dont want him hugging me there and i dont want my MOH sending me pics of her beautiful baby ( as much as i love him) as it kills me.
I really just want to cry all the time.

Thanks Mrs Walker. I dont think he knows he is doing it. My MOH is sending me picks of her baby boy ( she has mad eme his god mother and martyn his god father)
I love him to bits like i do all her other kids. But i just wish some times it was me. My doctor never told me i might get a swollen tummy. It is driving me mad. It is like oh this is what you should look like but you wont.

Could you maybe explain to MOH that you love her baby to bits but just explain how your feeling and about your tablets that your taking? Im sure she'd understand?

Speak to your GP again as he may offer you some counselling, PCOS is such a hard thing to deal with and not only that but women with PCOS have a much higher risk of suffering with depression. You need to be part of a support group or something, although I'm saying that and not even I am! I've known I've had it for 4 years now.
It's really hard hun, I know it is but you have to stay positive and instead of thinking you won't ever have a baby just think of it like this "you will have a baby, it might not be naturally but you will have".. I've come round to the fact that if I'm ever to have a baby I know its going to be through IVF or any other way and it makes it alot easier.
There is alot GPs can do, they just don't do it. I could of been put on clomid a long time ago and probably be pregnant by now but I've missed my chance and because I'm "over weight" they won't give me it.
Its horrible!
But you need to speak to people, especially Martyn, he needs to know how you really feel and explain to your MOH. People need to know whats going on xx

You'll have that baby one day though hun, it might not be right now or naturally but you'll have one. You just need to be strong!

You'll always think that, I've been thinking that for 4 years and I don't think I will ever stop.

And I know everyone's probably telling you to be strong and I know exactly how hard it is but you really have to try, if you crumble then that's it.

You'll have a baby, you may even have one naturally. You've only just been diagnosed, who knows what they will do for you!

Yep that's really stupid, a facebook quiz is not going to really tell you when you will fall pregnant so stop doing them!!

And talk to Martyn, he needs to know how you feel, how you really fell. Cry infront of him and let him hodl you tight, a good cry can make everything seem so much better.

I cry nearly every day over all this stuff and h2b knows exactly why and I love that, he doesn't need to say anything, neither do I, he'll just tell me it's going to be ok.

Knowing I have his support and he loves me unconditionally helps tons and it will be the same for you if you let him know how this stuff is affecting you

You have a right to cry and be upset - showing your true emotions is never a crime
if you need me you know where i am xxxxx