Wedding Forum - Can't believe it's over!...

Hi ladies :)
I know that Kieran is feeling worthless. He seemed so upset last week when we had to take money out of our savings and told me that he didn't feel like a proper man when he isn't working.
We went through this a year and a half ago just before he got work. When he has a job he is fantastic. He comes home in the evening, gets dinner, reads Ellie a story, makes me tea whilst doing the dishes and chills out in front of the fire with me. He has no inclination to go near the laptop never mind join dating sites. I know that if he had a job he'd be himself. But it's not like he can just get a job in the morning.
And I have an appointment in the hospital on thursday which he is supposed to take me to. I am having a procedure done so he'll have to mind me afterwards - there's no-one else really.
My brother confided in me this evening that he knew the reason I wasn't telling anyone (like my parents) is because I want to take him back. I tried to deny it but I suppose it's true. I don't want them to hate him just in case we can work it out.
But still - depression doesn't excuse this. And in my eyes he is cheating - even if it is just emotionally.
I am fairly confident that he hasn't cheated physically because he never really goes out.
I feel so sick all the time - I just want to get into bed and never get out of it!

Maybe when he's working he doesnt use the laptop at home because he uses the works computer?

Update:
He's still telling me that it wasn't a big deal and that he loves me.
I am forcing him to look for somewhere else to live. If he is not willing to answer my questions and to see my side then I don't want to be with him. I love him but right now I hate him. I can't believe how selfish he is being. Also, when we first met he smoked weed. I hated it because it turned him into a different person. Guess what I found in his car? I asked him to his face had he been smoking it and he promised he hadn't - then I showed him what I found.
And what was his answer? I didn't smoke any of it - I just have it in case I want to...
I'm done - he can go back to his mum!
I pretended to text his Dad to say that he was back smoking it again and his face went white. Obviously he know's everyone would be so angry with him!
I could just cry and cry and cry.
Never have I met a man who loved me the way he seemed to. I've always been used or abused and now he's turned out the same. I just don't see a point anymore... me and men are done - single pringle from now on I think :(

Aw hun im so sorry, but its best you found out now. we are all here for you. x

Well said Kev's Angel
Thinking of you hun, stay strong xx

i cant believe he lied to you.... well done for standing your ground!