Hi ladies :) I know that Kieran is feeling worthless. He seemed so upset last week when we had to take money out of our savings and told me that he didn't feel like a proper man when he isn't working. We went through this a year and a half ago just before he got work. When he has a job he is fantastic. He comes home in the evening, gets dinner, reads Ellie a story, makes me tea whilst doing the dishes and chills out in front of the fire with me. He has no inclination to go near the laptop never mind join dating sites. I know that if he had a job he'd be himself. But it's not like he can just get a job in the morning. And I have an appointment in the hospital on thursday which he is supposed to take me to. I am having a procedure done so he'll have to mind me afterwards - there's no-one else really. My brother confided in me this evening that he knew the reason I wasn't telling anyone (like my parents) is because I want to take him back. I tried to deny it but I suppose it's true. I don't want them to hate him just in case we can work it out. But still - depression doesn't excuse this. And in my eyes he is cheating - even if it is just emotionally. I am fairly confident that he hasn't cheated physically because he never really goes out. I feel so sick all the time - I just want to get into bed and never get out of it!
CommentAuthorkrisw86
maybe u need to actually spend some time apart. a few weeks or so. just to make sure u are definately sure how u feel for him. i know that emotional cheating is basically cheating all together as an ex did it to me, but he was meeting other girls (mainly ones that were meant to be my friends) and sleeping with them behind my back. But i honestly believe he is doing it make sure that he is still worthwhile. it's a pride thing for a man, and they dont like to admit defeat.
i do hope it all works out. and i believe ur brother is correct.
chin up girl. xxx
CommentAuthorRayanne
Maybe when he's working he doesnt use the laptop at home because he uses the works computer?
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CommentAuthorRockabilly chick
Awwww, It must be so hard for you. I hope you're ok but please think carefully hun. I know if it was me, I wouldnt be able to forget and trust again (Im already quite an insecure person). Maybe its best that you found out before the wedding. Even though he hasnt physically cheated, to me, its still cheating. If you guys can get over then thats great but put yourself first hun. If you do take him back, give him hell for it first lol.
I really do hope that you're ok, a similar thing happened to me with an ex and I remember how horrible it was. Good luck with whatever you choose to do :-) all the best xxxxxxxxxxxx
CommentAuthoremma-lou1506
Update: He's still telling me that it wasn't a big deal and that he loves me. I am forcing him to look for somewhere else to live. If he is not willing to answer my questions and to see my side then I don't want to be with him. I love him but right now I hate him. I can't believe how selfish he is being. Also, when we first met he smoked weed. I hated it because it turned him into a different person. Guess what I found in his car? I asked him to his face had he been smoking it and he promised he hadn't - then I showed him what I found. And what was his answer? I didn't smoke any of it - I just have it in case I want to... I'm done - he can go back to his mum! I pretended to text his Dad to say that he was back smoking it again and his face went white. Obviously he know's everyone would be so angry with him! I could just cry and cry and cry. Never have I met a man who loved me the way he seemed to. I've always been used or abused and now he's turned out the same. I just don't see a point anymore... me and men are done - single pringle from now on I think :(
