God i am fuming!!!!!

As i have 7 bridesmaids right from the start 2 n a half years ago, we al agreed that i would pay for the 4 child bridesmaid dresses if the adults paid there own which wasnt a problem as i am getting them from she who should not be named and as i am ordering 7 i also got a bit of a discount, so they were basically paying less than normal, any way i will have the money together to order them next week,

well so i thought thanks to my sister who is MOH

Any way i am a childminder and her children are in my care, she pays me what she can every week of her tax credits then what ever else she owes me she gives me at the end of the month when she gets paid, but as i was in a rush hopeing to order the dresses i told her that instead of giving me the money she owed just give it to my mum for the dress.

anyway phone mum last night asking her if my sis had gave her money answer was no, so i was fuming instantly my mum went on to defend my sis (as she always does) saying that she was probably short and needed the money pointing out that i was in that position a couple of weeks back,

so i told my mum that a was raging as that money was mine i told my sister to put it to the dress out the kindness of my heart and that the other 2 bridesmaids had to pay there own and i had payed for my sisters,

she then went on to tell me to calm down i was getting myself into a state and that i would have the money for the dress by next week, prob cause my mum will have to pay out her money as the end of the month isnt next week!!

so my night ended in tears that is the first i have truly had a complete BRIDEZILLA moment hope there isnt many more of them.

sorry to bore you all but realy had to get it of my chest, my sister can be so selfish at times :(

People who are short of money are the wrong people to tell " put this towards xyz" because inevitably the will use it to get themselves out of whatever tight spot they are in this week if it's urgent. Or, if you're like one of my sisters spend it on something inappropriate

yeah i just wanted them out the way and my my mind at rest as there is 7 of them and the 2nd deposit is due on my venue, it just p*****d me of cause if it wasnt for the dresses she would have gave me that money anyway as she always does when she get her pay, Tsukijin the inappropriate thing she spent it on was a weekend to glenco which she had booked in January (plus i watched her kids so she could go) Kempy lesson learned i will know in future, i am a lot calmer today though lol i know my mum will get her out of it as she always does think thats what got up my nose the most, everytime i have a complaint about my sister my mum always trys to turn around either its my fault or im over reacting, it would be nice to have a wee bit of back up from her every now and again. thanks girls not ofter i have a rant was good to get it of my chest as i said first real bridezilla moment wasnt nice and was in tears at 11 o clock last night lol think im overwhelmed with how quick this year is flying in, one min its Monday and before i know it its sunday

im getting scared :(

xxxxx

oh so do i every time my eczema gets under controll i end up having a flare up again, everybody keeps telling me to calm down and that its a wedding a happy time, but to be honest i never in my life thought i would be getting married i have had some horrible relationships in the past, and thought when people spoke about sole mates they were talking rubbish but i have never in my life felt like this and im so so scared incase it all goes tits up lol.xx

Yeah thats what im trying to do, im even of the drink just now to try n help it clear up as i think that 2 is making it worse, its such a rigmarol just now i have a shower wash my self with diprobase, come out, take 5 to 10 minutes to dry myself as i need to pat myself dry, then you start applying your steriod cream, then the moisturer, then bandages so all in take nearly 30 to 45 mins, but i am hopefully on my way since seeing the specialist on monday i see a HUGE difference he gave me anti biotics as i had an infection in my hair folicles and what a difference, go back to see him in a month,

Are you seeing a specialst hun, xxxx

Have you tried sunbeds or uvb treatment they usualy work for me aswell dont get me wrong im well aware of the dangers of sunbeds an i totally agree but a wee blast for maybe 3 mins twice to once a week realy helped to clear it up for me.xxx

hahaha, why dont you ask your doctor about uvb treatment (it is like a sunbed) but you dont tan as much, you start of with 20 seconds i know sounds like a waste of time but it practically cleared mine up in about 8 week, they build you up the highest they go to is 6 mins but i only went to 3, they said if it worked they would give me a course of treatment 8 weeks before the wedding there is also this other drug that i have heard about it is a pill, but when i asked they said it was mainly used for pysoriasis, but as a last resort they would try me with it (although dont think i will need it now) its called Methotrexate, you could maybe ask about it huni if you get to your wits end, its horrible i hate it so many times i have been in tears because of it, and the lack of sex life cause im so embarrased it about it xxxxx

no problem huni its been great talking to someone in the same boat as me and knows how it feels.xx

I have psoriasis and I know from experience that they're very wary about giving methotrexate because of the side effects from it, I was told that it was a chemotherapy type drug and that I couldn't get pregnant while on it or for 6 months after coming off it so it is really a last resort drug.

Thanks for the warning vicki. Maybe I'll stay clear then as as soon as we get back from honeymoon H2B and I want to start trying xx