so went to 2nd scan yesterday, baby is fine thankgod, they did checklist and everything was normal and working well, was sent out for a walk because when it came to checking the heart the baby kept moving until his/her back was facing forward and his/her head facing my spine, but went back in 10 mins later and heart was pumping blood fine and getting enough oxygen. not 100% sure and didnt ask but when they checked umbilical cord, we didnt see any "danglies" so me and h2b think we are having a girl! put up scan pics in photo album :)

housing update! me and mum had another big row cos i told her i dont want her going to scan cos she went to 1st and because all she talks about is miguel and has been in horrendous bad mood last few days, i said i want this to be a happy time cos this is last scan we are probably having as its last routine one. she kicked off saying im using my baby as a weapon (ray doesnt agree cos he didnt want mum there either cos of how shes treated me recently so he said he must be using baby as weapon too then) and she started making stuff up saying i said she can never see baby! i said nooooo i said i dont mind u and miguel seeing baby as long as me or ray are here, only cos i hardly no miguel and im not leaving baby with stranger, plus miguel doesnt like mums attention on anyone else but him so wouldnt be safe anyway, ray also agrees with this and when i start to back down and think if it will make her bloody happy ill do what she wants, he instantly tells me nooo way. mum started calling me names again and shouting and i said mum stop please i dont want to fight with u i want my mum back i dont want to lose my mum, she said u already lost me and ray tried to jump in to stick up for me cos i just burst out crying and mum shouted,

YOU CANT GET INVOLVED COS YOUR NEVER HERE!!! which he can get involved its his child, and while i was crying and he was holding me up tryin to calm me down, mum said i want u out and sooner rather than later and miguel can move in then, sorry but i want to protect baby and i dont think they be safe if mums attention is fixated on miguel. so we went into housing office but gotta go back wed, or fri to declare ourselves homeless to be put in a hostel or temporary housing. rays nana said she will come in with me for support. so there we go. might get something before or just after wedding. wish us luck.

AND THANKS TO ALL THE LADIES WHO HAVE GIVEN ME TONS OF SUPPORT THROUGH OUT THIS TIME, I LOVE YOU ALL LOADS AND RAY IS SO THANKFUL FOR ALL OF YOU CHEERING ME UP AND HELPING US! x x x x x x x and baby gives ladies a poke :) x x

Fab news that everything is ok with the baby, and to make sure it stays that way, you Ray and bump need to get out of there as soon as possible. I'm sure once you all have your own space everything will calm down. Good luck x

awww u done it !! thats wat i told u to do!!! gud luck wiv ti hun x

Hey hunny your scan pics are amazing glad all is well and lil one is growing fine glad it went smoothly aswell for you both,as for your mother well i think its ridiclious she has thrown you out whilst pregnant aswell hopefully the space will make her realise whta she has been like and she will come round!!!big hugs to you and remember to relax xxx

Aww huni i am so glad the scan went well. I cant believe your mum is still being like this with you. She should no better then to work you up being pregnant and getting married in 4 weeks.I cant believe she has decided to move the bloke in already. Hope your ok. You know i am here if you need a chat. xxx

thanks ladies :)

shes trying to sort things out and apologised and tried to make out shes never wanted us to leave but me and ray know differently, were talking now but i dont think we will be as close as we used to be, i just feel so cut off and distant from her now, i still love her to bits and dont want her to struggle when we move out but ray and baby are my family and priority. she said she wants us out so we are going, we want to be a happy family and we both feel we cant relax when here for fear of a row stirring up, miguel is coming down before wedding but hopefully will be out by then,

hes too full on and touchy feely even with me and my gran and sister (went to visit after scan and he was trying to give them kisses and they were VERY uncomfortable to say the least and asked me to not leave baby with him as he was very clingy and needy towards mum, apparently very touchy feely in front of them too which they were not happy with) and rays gotten to point if miguel keeps trying to kiss me and hug me and touch me etc he is going to punch him and mum knows that and i know it will not go down too well.

never thought id feel disconected from my mum as we were soooo close before, i could tell her everything but now, i feel cold and empty with her, hope that will mend soon, just got so angry that she wouldnt take any responsibility or understand it from my side too like yes i understand from her side she wants to be with her bf, but it is too s3xual in front of family. she just said we were both being very silly but, hey ho what can u do?

wish us luck for wed, nana is going to council with me as ray has to work all day.

married soon, :D cant wait, wish it hasnt been so bloody stressful though, been so scared for baby and ray, ray has said anything happens to me or baby and he will go into a rage and possibly burn house down... dont think he would but i think he was trying to emphasise what i mean to him..

love u all x x

lol he is strange abbi.

but if mum is happy then im not gunna get in way of that, but she does need to accept that i am not leaving my baby with him for a while, ray wont allow it and i dont feel too comfortable with it either. so...

:) x x

aw :D thanks lollilou x x x

I'm sure that once you've got your own place and you've all got your own space you'll all be much happier. You've probably all been living in each others pockets - this space will do you good, and will make you appreceitate the time you spend together afterwards. Conentrate on one thing at a time and try not to get drawn into conversations about who can and can't look after the baby once it's born as it's going to leave a lot of emotions festering away. You've got wednesday then a very fab wedding to look forward to :) x

and thanks lala hunnie x x x

Hey hun, hope u get something sorted when you go the housing! Best of luck with it! x